True Love Still Exists – with Eesher: The 20-Year Love Story of Ahmad and Hanan — Pure, Powerful, Yet Denied (2)
“After my marriage, Allah blessed me with a baby girl. True to my promise, I named her Maryam.
Ahmad, on the other hand, returned to school and obtained his HND certificate, just as we had agreed. He got married seven years ago and now has a child. I still hear about him through his female cousin, with whom I’ve remained in touch.
Astagfirullah… For the 20 years of my marriage, I have never forgotten Ahmad. I tried my best to be committed—enduring, overlooking, and doing all I could to make things work (that’s a story for another day). The marriage was blessed with five children—one of whom, sadly, is now late. But truth be told, the love and connection were only a façade…
Last year, I left my matrimonial home—not because of Ahmad, but due to reasons I could no longer endure. Ahmad is aware of my divorce. We communicate occasionally, though we haven’t met physically to this day.
I don’t know if he still truly wants to be with me. Yes, he still calls me “My Princess” 😍 and I respond with “My Love,” but something inside me—my instincts—still don’t see us ending up together. 🥹😫
The truth is, he is the only person my heart ever beat for. If I get to be with him, I’ll be happy. But if not, I know I’ll still survive—I’ll manage my life without him.
Still, I have never stopped loving him. My heart still skips a beat when I hear his voice—even after all these years. The emotions feel as fresh as ever. And that alone has made me vow never to let my daughters marry anyone they do not love. In shaa Allah, I’m willing to sacrifice everything just to be with him.
He once said to me, “Allah yasa ba zan mutu ba sai an daura mana aure. Even if I die immediately after, I’ll be content because I believe we’ll live together in the Akhirah.
What makes our love even more special is how it grew—not through words like “I love you”—but slowly, sincerely, as friends who became lovers. He always cried whenever I had to return home after visiting him. Deep down, I know he’s still afraid of how my people might react.
I just want to be sure the feelings are still mutual—then, together, we can face whatever comes and, in shaa Allah, overcome it all. Although we still communicate over the phone, Ahmad and I will be meeting in person for the first time in over 20 years next month. I still don’t know what Allah has in store for us…
Dear Anonymous,
Your story is deeply moving. Thank you for sharing such raw, honest, and powerful emotions. Your journey is a reflection of the nature of true love—and also the quiet strength of a woman who has endured much yet still holds onto hope and dignity.
It’s clear that Ahmad holds a sacred place in your heart, and it’s equally clear that you’ve done your part as a wife, mother, and believer. You honoured your vows, gave your best, and bore the trials of life with remarkable patience. May Allah reward you for every tear, every sacrifice, and every act of silent endurance.
As for Ahmad, love that lasts two decades—despite distance, silence, and life’s many turns—is rare. The way your connection grew slowly, without theatrics, and remained intact all these years, suggests it was built on sincerity, not fantasy.
But as you already understand so well: while emotions are powerful, outcomes belong to Allah alone.
You are wise to seek clarity before proceeding and even wiser to leave the future in Allah’s hands. This upcoming meeting is not just about rekindling love—it’s about seeing if the bond that once tied two hearts can be revived in a way that honours your deen, your dignity, and your dreams.
Whether Allah reunites you or redirects you, remember this: “You are already whole.” With or without him, you have proven your heart’s capacity to love, endure, and grow.
And the vow you made for your daughters? That’s beautiful. May they find love that is true, mutual, and halal from the very start.
May Allah guide your steps, soften what is hard, and write for you what is best—both in this world and the next.
With love and du’a,
Sis Eesher
The end!
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